The title may sound corny but lately i can’t sleep because of the same recurring dreams about who I want, love need and all that crazy ass shit. I came home last night and fell asleep, but somehow i kept saying my friend’s name right before i fell asleep. Like it was some kind of spell she put me under.
She in the other hand is one of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever met. Honestly, she is the closest person right now that I can be myself with and “vice-versa”. I don’t know why but every time I’m with her I just can’t stop being attracted to her but i know how to fight myself. I enjoy mind games for some reason and so, trying to get over her is by far one of the biggest challenges I’ve faced in a while. But if time actually comes and finally gives me what I want…. Then I’ll be so fucking happy I’ll shit rainbows.
I can’t believe I’m saying this but half the times I dream about loosing her to some other kid that I’ve never heard about and what i don’t understand is that till this date, in every one of her relationships, all of her ex boyfriends were total assholes. Some break up through texts some stalk her like WTF? Last nights’ dream was about the same thing every other time; It’s about all my “friends” chilling together and somehow we end up in a room together and we talk and smooch. I’m not a big fan of wet dreams, I find that really really unsanitary.
The first thing I did when I woke up was turn on the computer, take a piss and now I’m writing this post. so you can say that this blog will mean a lot to me.
Confused as fuck…